stolenshadesofblue

Sanguine Days I fondly remember those days Flower necklaces, unbroken Our hearts open, blind to fate When lies were never spoken We ran through fields of lavender Ran away from all our cares The nightmares that never were In this world where all is fair Our love sanguine and pristine Unscathed by ugly truth Tarnished life was never seen In our candy coated youth How I hunger for that again A long forgotten innocence To once again call you my friend And trust in total confidence I would happily live life blind To reside in that carefree story Live a dream within my mind Forever glad to be a memory

Give me a reason I know the life you’re promising me Sugar coated kisses, a lovely wedding ring I know nothing worth having is ever free So should I risk all the pain you could bring? Give me one reason to be anything to you To love you, to keep you, to stay beautiful To weather the storm you’ll put me through Sacrifice everything that kept my life simple Give me a reason to relinquish to you The power to replace my own name To justify everything you’ll naturally do And play me like I’m just a game Bind me in marriage, in consecration Sell me this miracle, all love can be Choke down that life, and face desolation S

Beautiful Abomination Shattered petals; the sharpness of one blow. I forgot the quickness of it all; how you left me wounded. I felt the sting in your eyes, and the thrilling absence of regret, It only took one moment to lose the body that was mine. The moment you connected, and the world lost its shape.   Broken in your silence; stained by secret fists. The blood roses fell to join in my disgrace. Face down on the floor with those same familiar boots. They stare back at me beneath a blanket of petals. A beautiful abomination is what you are to me. A gorgeous; hollow being with bloodied knuckles. Nothing left but the ember in your eyes

Push this perfect into me I wonder how it would feel To conform and permeate perfectly Believe only beauty was “real” I could be pretty and pristine Smart and funny and popular My tattoos swapped for saline Black mascara instead of scars I see all the twisted cruel lies Hearts and minds stolen by you Pitiless beauty, society’s denial My Imperfection, a perfect truth I know the secret tragedy in it all The unfortunate, diseased few You’re a predator, a gaping maw The devil that devoured our youth The perpetrator of this tragedy Creating the sickness I am today Among the yielding, and empty I was too flawed, a sad m

Love, if only you could see it now How unfair the game was played If I could some way tell you how You fell into the black I made I brought you down with the ship I let you plunge into my disaster I stood by and watched you slip My efforts only felled you faster Love, it’s hard to explain to you I was never meant to be contained The pain that I have put you through I hope has not left you stained I tried to make myself yours… Though I doubted it was meant to be I couldn’t give what wasn’t there anymore I was dying inside to be free Love, I am sorry for what I’ve done I knew that I couldn’t live the lie

A lotus is what remains. Wounds healed with art and hue A scar fades, where ink stains And now I can forget you The scars which you left me Were once buried under hate Exhumed a forgotten memory A lotus; detached from fate These colors can’t betray me My tranquil palette overflows Reveals beauty you couldn’t see Sentient splendor I couldn’t show From the muddiness in my past I rose, I overcame; I grew Indelible ink meant to outlast The filth, the pain… and you

I could see your tears falling Staining the silk upon your face I didn’t mean to break you, darling Knowingly stole your heart away I tugged at your heart strings They felt fragile in my hand I know too well how love stings A pain you now understand I watched you crumble down My touch was fatal, and precise Love I smashed into the ground Struck you without thinking twice Like a toy, I broke your heart Velveteen and stitched inside I ripped your innocence apart And I cried, I cried, I cried…